Salam everyone.

Today has been quite a disaster. My so-called officer in duty had broke my heart by saying a few things which had definitely tore all of my respect in the world for him. Wrecked apart. By having a bad morning, with a 3 hour-sleep the night before, I switched on the air-conditioner and took my afternoon nap with great anger. Didn’t anyone care about how to take care of a person’s feeling anymore? I was downgraded a few thousands of times before. None of those I paid a single attention to. All the skeptical looks, cynical and hypocrite faces had been my bittersweet symphony for these past few years. I had grown matured enough to tell the difference between good and evil. People can act as nastily as they pleased but I won’t treat them back in the same way. Enough of the unnecessity of a human’s ethics. We have becoming more rude each day. We envied other people’s perfect frame of life. We held grunges, we acted good while deep inside, we planned on  comtemplating a first-degree murder on that particular someone. We faked our smiles. We live in a phony environment. I’m not certainly one of those. In fact, I actually hate to be patient on these type of people. Today has another story.

What makes a person thinks that by earning a degree and having the pleasure to sit on a nice leather comfortable chair in his very own office can allow him to treat people any differently? What makes he thinks that any lay person around speaks no better English than him? What makes he thinks that with the highest position of the department under his belt entittles him to be so freaking rude? He drove me nuts. We, the ‘ordinary’ people, were the ones who actually paid the taxes for the sake of his salaries. We were the ones who paid for his big table and computers and his precious chair! And he has an ‘amanah’ to dwell around with. A very humangous ‘amanah’ from and for us, these ‘ordinary’ people! Did he aware of that?

Push aside all the egoism in the world for the sake of earned respect and adore. I make mistakes too. Nobody will ever come close to perfection. But please, his (accidental? nope!) sarcasm remarks left me blank stare at one point until I figured out that I’ve been praising off the wrong person all these while.

As if he cares.. How devastated!

I certainly will experience a nightmare tonight~