One of the greatest rahmat for me, when I can stare out of the window
while drops of rain wash up the ground. The tranquility of life,
achieved with endless thankful thoughts how I wished this situation
can last forever. At least, for now =)

I was attending an interview yesterday. Whilst some hopeful candidates
stared bluntly at their respective panel room, I was having
butterflies in my stomach. My confidence level was so high, I thought
my stomach, brain and heart would have shattered to pieces of meat and
blood anytime soon [hyperbolic, urm~]. The moment I walked into the
room, I was warmly greeted by two interviewers. My bad, I didn’t ask
their names (iskh!). The questions and answers session went so well,
up until one point, I had to make a decision between futher up my
study and become an educator until I’m 58 yo, or, I can go back and do
what I’m doing right now, building up my business. *headache*

I didn’t remember how exactly I had answered the question. My brain
was working out so fast, I must have blurted out the inappropriate
answer. Very true, who says earning your own money from your own
effort is not fulfilling, they are lying. I enjoyed looking through my
ledger book, put on my broadest smile after I’ve finished up my
calculation for every day’s sales. It’s a self-accomplishment when I
know with that amount of money I’ve earned, I can plan a bigger
preparation for what my business should be look like in the next 5,
10, or 50 years. But something is a missed somewhere. I’m building up
a legacy for my own sake, for my own family, for my own comfortable
world. I think I’m being a little too self-centered.

If I can become a millionaire through this business, I am not paying
my debt for the society. But if I can sacrifice my so-called dream of
becoming a millionaire as fast as I possibly can and instead, with the
knowledge, expertise and dedication that I have, I can turn it into
building and nourishing thousands of other kids or students or
entrepreneurs out there to become millionaires in the future, why on
earth not? The end purpose for me becoming one is very clear. I want
to help other people. And the means of other people can be either my
family and the society.

But helping from what way?

And how?

Why?

With the deterioration of human’s value nowadays, can I actually
afford to become selfish by getting rich individually? Can I actually
achieve ultimate happiness by having a seven-figure money inside my
bank’s account? Can I visit places in the world with my Louis
Vuitton’s luggage while people from my race are craving for food in
their very own country? Do I actually have the heart to wear expensive
shoes and clothes while my people suffer from poverty? LemonVanilla
Foundation For Kids might as well play it’s role, but until when?

If I have not given the chance to do my bit in educating them now, who else would?

And how?

On my way back from KL to home, up until this very moment, I cursed
myself for not letting these opinions out. True, earning money with
you becoming your own boss is heaven. Work according to your own
timetable is another one. But I sincerely don’t want to live with the
guilt engulf and haunt me over the next 50 years or so. I want to
educate people. And if I am shortlisted, I can be more than glad to
serve for the society. Name it Mukah or any other part of the nation,
I have no regret for this.

For those praises sir, I do want to become a great entrepreneur. No
doubt. But as far as my heart and soul are concerned, I would love it
more if I can produce thousands more of great entrepreneurs, let alone
me. I know what I want. And I hope God will show us the right path.
Amiinn.

*Special bunch of thanks to MR V for your assist!I know you love me ;P *