Salam to all.

To my delightful surprise, mak and ayah arrived home from Kangar last Saturday. As how my sister and I had already planned and bought to&fro tickets to visit them on this coming 23rd, mak suddenly had to attend a seminar in Serdang which started tomorrow. There, our miss-you-like-crazy-sickness has been healed quicker than we thought  All in all, I was thrilled. Just to have their presence back in home was already a very huge gift, given by Him, at the time where I did want them to be around the most~

Whenever I had to fight over my not-so-perfect senses with my feelings, I went dumb.. and numb. As how I would put it, I AM NOT YET AN ADULT. Sometimes I can handle things as diligently as any 22 year old should have done. But most of the times, probably due to a lot of surrounding stress and peer pressure, I did feel like decision-making is my worst nightmare ever. As an entrepreneur, a leader of the organization, a daughter who has to take charge of her life by her own, this is not good; at all.

I envied my cousin, for he is only 21, and yet he has the ability to console and walk me out of those clouds that engulfed my sight. Genetically, he entitled the privilege of making wise decisions with little effort. As a matter of fact, whenever I was worrying sick regarding any unsolved problem I’ve encountered, he’d be among the first few persons I would contact and pour my heart out. Sounded a little too selfish or having a low self-esteem whatsoever, you name it, I wouldn’t put it that way. As how my friend qouted, a human being is born with different flaws and abilities. While you could be great at something, you MUST have another trait that’s lacking. I admitted that I need a second say in most of my decision-making situations. Trust me at this one thing. When you started to feel very weak and helpless, always, ALWAYS remember that it is absolutely NORMAL. We are all weak, at various different points and levels. And if seeking help will make you feel better, find a person who can give you all the support that you required at that particular moment. While it can be very less daunting, as you go along the prosses, you will eventually realize that you had cut down all the unnecessary worries and sickness just by talking about it over with someone else.

It is totally not sellfish. We’re not perfect. Nor that we are good enough for not taking different point of views of other people who cared greatly about us. Just remember to watch over our limitations and boundaries and grow up along the way!

And as how I will like to stress out, always remember HIM.

If ALLAH brings you to it, HE will bring you through it;

Happy moments, praise ALLAH;

Difficult moments, seek ALLAH;

Quiet moments, worship ALLAH;

Painful moments, trust ALLAH;

Every moment, thank ALLAH

Best regards